How are you all doing? It’s hard to believe the last time I wrote to you we were only at the beginning of lockdown and now here we are a month, or more, in. I don’t know about you but at the outset I was all about setting myself big goals to achieve during lockdown life. I was going to get really fit with all the home workouts I’d be doing, I was finally about to get through the mountain of books piling up under my desk and, the best one, I was going to become a theologian pretty much overnight.
To say reality hit hard was an understatement. To be completely honest with you I spent the first week eating lots of chocolate (FYI still eating my daily requirement), crying quite a lot and I barely had enough energy to pick up my phone (shocking, I know) never mind a hefty book.
Over the past couple of weeks, I have noticed the intense pressure to push myself to the absolute max and become the ‘best me’ during lockdown and, to be quite frank, it’s a load of rubbish. That’s the last thing we need to hear.
Rather, I’ve been asking myself ‘What do I want God to develop in me in this season?’. This will look different for each of us individually, and that’s okay, but I wanted to encourage you with these words from Corinthians;
‘Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.’ 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
My prayer for myself this season is that I would be renewed internally day by day and be transformed into the likeness of Christ. Not by listening to every podcast available, or other people's opinions, or reading every book under the sun, but by fixing my eyes on Him, on what is unseen, for that is eternal. He will last much beyond this lockdown and what He is doing in us will help us become resilient and able to endure much more in the future.
So I ask you, how do you want God to develop you in this season?
I want to leave you with a song I’ve been listening to on repeat recently, I hope you enjoy it.