This Bible email I’ve found hardest to write, I want to talk about being hidden and since trying to write this I’ve realised there are so many different type of being hidden. Hiding from God, hiding from others and hiding from ourselves.
Hiddenness avoids being real and sometimes we don’t even know we are hiding it’s that hidden! What might we hide from God? Maybe our desires and our dreams for our future. What might we be hiding from ourselves and others? Things we are embarrassed or ashamed of and mistakes we’ve made we aren’t proud of.
Lockdown has provided soooo much solitude that it feels like all of the above have bubbled to the surface, anyway it has for me! We are not used to being on our own for THIS long and miss our friends. Where do we see solitude being used for good in scripture?
1 Samuel 16:11
So he asked Jesse, "Are these all the sons you have?" "There is still the youngest," Jesse answered. "He is tending the sheep." Samuel said, "Send for him; we will not sit down until he arrives."
David was a shepherd long before he became a king. Though his deepest desire was clearly to be a poet and worshipper, He spent his teenage years working this out hidden in a field. Looking after sheep and fighting wild animals, was surprisingly training him to be a warrior. Being king was the thing that released that calling. I wonder if David was ever embarrassed to show people his poetry or ashamed that he was a shepherd and his brothers were soldiers either way we know that God didn’t care because He saw David’s heart.
In solitude, I am more aware, through things bubbling up, that we are hiding things. When we think we are more accountable because we behave better around our friends and if they're good friends they make us feel good about ourselves. We’re often celebrated for our public persona, but never face our hidden lives. David reveals that it is facing our hidden lives, that should form our public persona.
1 Samuel 16:7
“For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart."
David ended up being King which is a really public role but it’s his time in the fields which comes out in all his Psalms.
Want to work out what your heart desire is like David’s to be a worshipper? Ask yourself Why? 5 times about your desire. E.g.
Hannah thought about this in her love of looking at portraits:
Why do I like looking at portraits?
Because I find people’s faces fascinating.
Because they are filled with character
Because its someone’s physical body that carries all their story
Because we were made to communicate
Because we’re made in the image of God
Conclusion: Hannah is working out how to use her own portraits to share how God sees people