It’s really easy to be in a state or cycle of uncertainty and then certainty and then uncertainty again. Maybe you have something you can think of where you know in the end it will work out but the process of getting there is really difficult. Maybe it’s every time you wait for a test or exam result, an invite to a party, medical results, being chosen for sports teams or how your friend will respond to a Snapchat or message.
I just graduated from University (woo!) and in my first and second year every single time I had an essay to write (which was very regularly) I would FREEEEAK out and basically avoid it at all costs. If my classmates would try to talk to me about the essay topic, I’d change the subject. Every time I handed the essay in there would be such a sense of relief and satisfaction. Yet when it came to the time again to start writing a new essay I would have no memory of ever experiencing the amazing feeling of a sense of achievement and I’d go all the way back to square one avoiding conversations again with class mates about the essay topic, procrastinating and doing everything under the sun except the essay.
There’s a passage I love and it’s in the New Testament in Matthew 6:31-34. It says:
Matthew 6:31-34 (NIV)
31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
What I want you to take away from the passage is that things can FEEL uncertain but God says that tomorrow will worry about itself. I looked at Verse 34 in the Message translation and it says:
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.
With writing my essays I would always do two things; assume the worse would happen and then get worked up about what ‘may or may not happen’. God always helped me to write all those essays and it took until my last year of my degree to trust and him and look back on all the times he had helped me to get my essays written like how it says God will do in Verse 34 ‘deal with whatever hard things come up’.
For me those periods of time where I was writing essays were such times of uncertainty. It is not as if they became more comfortable in my last year but I learnt to trust God in the uncertainty of the process of writing my essays. I had to choose to ignore the fear and uncertainty of not knowing what grade I would get instead try to do what it says in Verse 34:
‘Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow’. I've attacahed a video by worship leaders Melissa and Jonathan Helser talking about the 'Necessity of Seasons'.